So...First of all, I must say thank you [sincerely, no lie] from the bottom of my heart to the people who commented on my previous journal. It meant the world to me, really honestly truly. So... thanks for the comments. :] Thanks isn't enough, but it's all I've got, okay? Okay.
I thought a lot about the comments and now am drawing again. I found a drawing I did at the end of this school year. I thought I had thrown it out, but by a strange stroke of luck and genius [haha] I decided to open the cabinet in my living room for God-knows-what reason and there it was! The pink binder where the picture lay, patiently waiting to be completed.
It really is quite nice... I worked very hard on the hardest parts [hands and lips] and am almost done. I know, you're thinking 'it's a picture, Lex, get over it" but it's not... it's like some weird voo-doo-ish omen screaming at me, "START UP YOUR DRAWING AGAIN, FOOL!"
And you know what?
I am listening.
So I probably will just be switching accounts... It seems minor, but it is a BIG step. I don't have much on this account, so deleting everything would be simple as one-two-three [ABC, one-two-three baby you and me! lalalala] but I'm thinking I'll leave up the "art" so I can observe my progress. And so I can read these journals, of course-- I don't keep a real written one [something which I will be starting up again sometime soon. Really!] and so this is the best I've got. Also, like art, you can track how much people change by reading their journals. Or just reading your own. I read the journals on my old account and my mind boggled. THAT was me, just two years ago??! Oh my! What a change! I am amazed, truly astounded and amazed, at how much I have changed. It's incredible! So, as a result, this account and all it's "glory" will stay... either to haunt me or as a lesson. Hey, whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger, right?
Now, moving on to the next topic...
Names are important to me. I used to think you could easily change your name to suit your mood, but it isn't like that, is it? You can change your hair color, you can change your style of dress or makeup, you can even struggle [and most likely fail] to force your personality to change, but you're stuck with your name. Sure, you can change it if you want, but... I'm not making sense, am I? Let's just get to the point.
I've been called "Kaora" for what, almost three years now? And truly, I realized it's... she... this "Kaora" person is not me. I can't continue to be called some name that's not mine. It feels wrong. And yes, it is odd to have people call me "Alexis" when I've been Kaora to them for years and years... but it's time for a change. It feels fake to be called Kaora. So I'll ask you to please, just call me Alexis.
And nothing is changing. I am just a bit busier than usual. I still like to roleplay, I still LOVE talking to you guys, really I do. So please just drop me a line and I'll respond as soon as I can.
Now! Next order of business...
To make a new username, my uncreative mind needs ideas. So tell me some things I remind you of, other than feelings/emotions [aka happy or excited]. Thanks!!
And that's all for now... you know where to find me if you need to talk.
-Alexis
Optimism
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she hides all her pain and tears behind and empty wall of fears, her smile fakes the life she wants to love
Don't make Bobbeh sad.
Upload arts! 8D
you suck.
cause yer never on. T^T
jkjkjk
i love ya. <333
lol
but yeah.
i miss you.
but i know.
you have a life.
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best of luck m'dear! <333 JAYDA LUFFS J00.
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she hides all her pain and tears behind and empty wall of fears, her smile fakes the life she wants to love
-gives giant bear hug-
See you!
<3
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